As I was
growing up, I had some harsh personal situations happen to me. Some of these
situations ended up harming my personal confidence. So now, even though I’m 23
years old, I continue to face that struggle of gaining personal confidence on
my skills, education, beliefs, etc. It seems like it is a never-ending cycle.
Due to these problems faced early on in my life, I personally cannot keep a
long-term relationship. Even though I have sought professional help, to build
on self-confidence from scratch, it is a long process and a process that I
sometimes give up on. Therefore, in my point of view, to reflect on a situation
in which I had extreme amounts of confidence is to actually have an average
amount of confidence compared to others.
During
my undergraduate degree, I was struggling a bit to become more open because I’m
a very shy, introvert person most of the time. When I one day attended a class
in the graduate program of Business Administration, I knew that that type of
environment was not for me. So, I needed to find a program that was a bit more
flexible and did not involve meeting with people face to face as much because I
knew I would struggle to make contact. Therefore, one of my greatest moments,
in which it was a situation were I raised up with a bit more self-confidence,
was when I got accepted into the MSLD program through the ERAU Worldwide
campus. At first I was scared, did not think that I would be accepted, that I would
probably fail, and so on. But, something inside of me continued on to tell me
to just give it a try! So, the moment when I found out that I was accepted, I
jumped for joy. I happily cried and screamed from the top of my lungs how
grateful I was to God to be accepted into the program. Now that I am a year
into the program, I continue to be happy and proud of the decision I made to
try and apply to a graduate program.
A
current situation where I continue to have a low amount of self-confidence is
actually going out to the “real world”. The reason why I call it the “real
world” in quotations is because it is a place outside of my current comfort
zone. It is a place where everything is different and a place where
self-confidence is needed in order to triumph along with others. I use the term
going out as in getting another job by starting my career in the business
world. Even though right now I have a job, I do not consider or feel that I
should stay in the same job or in the same position for any more than one more
year. As much as I want to overcome past situations, build more confidence, and
overall just be a better me; I cannot continue to stay on the same comfort zone
struggling to live check by check. Therefore, it is time to put myself first by
building more on my self-confidence so one day I can look back and be proud of
the past decisions I have made. But for now I must overcome my fear, helplessness,
confused and depress feelings and gain confidence on my decisions, choices, and
ultimately on myself.
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