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Reflecting on this assignment of Chapter 1 assessments, I can honestly say there’s a lot I’m personally and professionally not aware about, things I didn’t think I unconsciously did and other things that I realize I tend to do in certain situations.

Self-Awareness Assessment

For the self-awareness assessment, I realize that I barely have any self-disclosure and only some openness to feedback. For self-disclosure aspect of the assessment I can say that I’m aware that I don’t reveal much of myself to anyone but to very close friends and family members. In the aspect of openness to feedback, I thought that I can be pretty open to feedback without retaliating or arguing why I think I’m correct and the other person is wrong. But I questioned it and realized that there are plenty of instances where I have begun to argue my points and/or decisions especially when I’m being criticized for my decisions. In the second part of the self-awareness assessment there’s the awareness of own values, emotional intelligence, change orientation, and core self-evaluation. This part is a bit difficult to evaluate because I’m not used to evaluating myself. I know that I can be aware of my emotions to some extent, but very resistant towards change at times and unaware of my own personal values. I realize that I tend to go along with values that have been set forth for me while growing up and continue to follow the rules or values of society. As a result, it shocks me to see that I thought I acted a certain way but it turns out that I act according to my surroundings and society.

Emotional Intelligence Assessment

In the emotional awareness assessment, it has come to my attention that I’m unaware of what is going on inside me emotionally but I’m aware of the emotions of other people and aware of how I react. This has been something that I’m aware of and I find myself constantly working on. I realize there are moments where I can’t understand why I feel sad or mad and wait until I burst out to realize how I acted and what might’ve been the cause of my emotions. Under the emotional control category (balance), I barely have any emotional control of my own emotions. I tend to stay confused on why I can’t hold back my emotions at times, what caused me to feel the way I feel at the moment, or why I feel the need to burst out rather than work on the problem before it escalates. But there are times where I can confront the issue but just in a more personal matter and not in front of others. For the emotional diagnosis (empathy) category, the results show that I’m aware and acknowledge another person’s feelings and demonstrate sensitivity to a possible emotional issue. Unfortunately, I don’t recognize or acknowledge the different emotional commitments to situations. Lastly, for the emotional response I have excellent response to emotions when it comes to dealing with someone else’s emotions.

Defining Issues Test

For the defining issues test, the overall results show that I tend to use Stage 4 of the moral development stages most often. According to the classification of moral judgment table, the Conventional level has been explained as “moral value resides in duty, maintaining social contracts, keeping commitments” under which resides Stage 4. Stage 4 refers to the Social System and Conscience Maintenance stage. This stage has been explained as “right is doing one’s duty to society and upholding the social order” (Whetten, 2011). As I reflect on these definitions I realize that it goes along the lines of the entire assessment. For example, when there are instances where I can’t truly define the issue, I go with what society would approve of and therefore, I avoid being completely wrong because it is, in part, what has been taught to me. Personally, I’m unsure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.

Cognitive Style Indicator

According to the results under this category, I do not have a process of acquiring or understanding thoroughly thoughts, experiences, and senses. Under the knowing subcategory, I found myself just below the mean of young managers with a result of 3.25 and a mean of 3.89. Surprisingly, for the planning subcategory, the results show I’m above the mean for both young managers and young managers & MBA students. The results are 4 and the mean being 3.78 for young managers and 3.81for young managers and MBA students. This comes as a surprise to me because I didn’t think I plan much of my life or decisions. Under the creating subcategory, it does not come as a shock to me to know that I’m not much of a creative person or have a creative style. My results show a 2.42 and the current mean for young managers is a 4.01. I have never found myself to be creative with my personal decisions, not tend to “think outside the box”, or even be creative in art class.

Locus of Control Scale

For this part of the assessment, the results, 7, show that I’m above the mean, which is 5.19, and I’m also located in the top quartile, which is 7 or above. Reflecting on this result, I agree that I believe that I can control the events of my life. I do not leave this up to luck, chance or the universe to guide me on what to do next. I take charge of my life both personally and professionally.

Tolerance of Ambiguity Scale

Reflecting on the results of this part of the assessment, I realize I have tolerance of ambiguity. With the results of a low score, 35, I fall on the bottom quartile. But I begin to wonder if that is a good thing. I mean, does it mean that I don’t defend my point or what I believe in? At the same time, I realize that there have been plenty of times where in order to avoid arguments or loss of friendship/trust I allow others to voice their opinions while I keep mine private. Therefore, I allow the existence of opinions/ideas even though I may not necessarily agree with them, which can be good or bad thing when working as a team.

Core Self-Evaluation Scale

It does not come to a surprise to me to know that I received a very low score (bottom quartile) on the self-evaluation part of the assessment. The result is a 2.83 average while the mean score is 3.88. Personally, I know I barely have any self-confidence so; this result is truly not a surprise. It is something that I have personally struggled for years and continue to struggle with today, even professionally. I tend to doubt myself, think that others can do a much better job than me, and so on. It’s something that I continue to work on in a daily basis.

Overall, this assessment has helped me put light on many things. Things that initially I was not aware of about myself but I was aware of in others, things that I’m completely aware of but continue to struggle with, and things that I have been able to identify, describe, and are aware of. I will make this information very useful to me when beginning to read the chapter. I will look for definitions, explanations of my behavior, and reflect on why I was not aware of it at first and how I can tailor my behavior for the better. This has been a truly educational and eye-opening assessment about myself.

Source:

Whetten, D. A., & Cameron, K. S. (2011). Developing Self-Awareness. Developing management skills (8th ed., p. 70). Upper Saddle River, N.J.: Prentice Hall/Pearson.